I wonder am I happy now?

My idea...

..changed to something that is not what I want...not what I expected...

..the element that I wished to have...it has gone...

I do not dare to protest...

...because I do not dare to face the consequences if the lecturer doesn't like the idea...

...because I scare that my groupmates will blame me for my stupid idea...

...because I m inexperience...

...because I lack of confidence...

...because it is a group work...

Sometimes I will think that is it all her opinions are correct? Do we always have to use her concept?

But before that, she really proves that she is great. Therefore, I chose to follow her idea...for the sake of myother group members...I do not want my group members to fall because of my stubbornness.

We have to compromise when we are working as a team right?

Assignments kept flowing in week by week...every assignment also has due date...every week also not free...

My friend asked me before, "你是迷真是甘忙啊? 你忙d 麽耶哦？"

The answer is positively "是！真是好多耶做啊！"

Miss everything...

23 February 2009...

10.51pm...

I told Wern Yang tat i feel kinda depress...

And suddenly...

Tears suddenly rolled down my cheeks...

I dunno why...

Luckily i was alone in my room...there was no one to see me like this...

Maybe i miss home...daddy, mummy...sisters...friends in Ipoh...friends from drama...
Long time din keep in touch with most of my Ipoh friends...i wonder how are they doing? They will miss me too mah? or they already forget about me

Mix feelings...

Thx to Poh Ling for always calling me to share tears n joys with me...

Thx to Hung Wui for calling too...虽然认识你时间不长，但是你真够朋友！

Congratz to Shu Na, P. Yi Wen and Swee Nee! Dun feel sad Ju Nee...i m sure u did great too..

I did my assignment half-way...(not half-way exactly...just 1 paragraph..haha)...and i fell asleep...

24 February 2009...

Today wake up...my mood is better ady^^

Life still goes on right?

Fun weekend...although nothing special, still it was fun!

Daddy n Mummy came visit me last Saturday. Mummy brought alot of biskuts n drinks for me!!! Daddy wanted to take me out for dinner to eat chinese food. Daddy did not give up searching for chinese stall! We finally found one..hahaha. We really had a great time! Thx daddy n mummy...I suddenly miss u all very much...

After that, I went to K17 to find Xiu Sar gor aka banana aka Chin Guan. Too bad Hung Wui went back to hometown. I finally saw those cute little hamsters in the room. Although I sked to hold it, i still find them very cute...hehe

Chin Guan took me to walk around the faculty. Then we met Yee Ching. At 1st, Chin Guan wanna took me to a "creepy" place..but then Yee Ching very sked n pulled us back...hahaha! I also watched abit K17 Idol...not real competition yet..i think just audition or something like tat...

Chin Guan said 1.30am he will go watch football. But then after that he din go coz he said his friends watch different match. So he kept on watching the football results thru the net...and then he fell asleep...lol

On Sunday, Chin Guan n I went to The Mines to buy present for Charles' bday tonight. We both also very hungry coz we din eat breakfast. When we came back around 5pm, it rained. So we hv to run back to his room and we both get wet...so tired leh...run here run there...lol! Hung Wui came back in the evening n very shocked to see me! haha...i tot wanna gave him a surprise de... But he kept on saying he was quite down when coming back to UPM, maybe he misses home bah...^^

We decorated Charles' present, thx to banana la...he did most of the work. And later Ee Chyi n Eevonn came out from the chinese orchestra performance and went to the bday party together with us.

The party was kinda fun. Can't believe his parents came too. There was a game, but i din play. Pei Wen reli geng leh!!! she is my idol lo...hahaha...so sporting! The most happy is get to meet all of the friends from the drama again. Hope there will be more gathering like this.

When we wanna leave, Hung Wui got abit stomachache leh. I think he is alright ady bah...wat a fun n happy weekend! A weekend without thinking about studies n assignments. I need to hv fun more often! Again, thx to banana gor for the stay! Hope i din cause too much disturbance...


I wanna upload some hamsters pictures but cnt...the line here sucks...


Today is Monday. sienz...*Yawn*

Shu na, swee nee, ju nee n yi wen got chinese debate competition. Wish them all the best!

Pesta Ang Pau UPM 2009 ~乌拉! 乌拉~

Pesta Ang Pau UPM 2009 has finally come to an end. The same goes to the drama. Of coz there are good comments n many bad comments as well. I m sure no one would like to listen to bad comments but once again…the world is cruel…haha. People (including myself) will only look at the results and seldom look at the hard work n efforts that have been made. People will just comment, “Aww…that’s boring!”…this not good, that not good. As mentioned by shu na’s mother, “别人的事不要理，他们怎样想是他们的事”… I think I hv to change my attitude next time when I watch other ppl’s performance so that I will not end up like those ppl…haha

But there are ppl who like it too. Thx to my friends who enjoy the drama. I really happy that u all come support…kinda touched…seriously.

The most important is that I get the chance to take part n perform in such a big event. I enjoy every moment of it…although get some injuries, I can still stand it. Thx to the teacher for guiding us! I reli learned a lot from him.

The happiest is I get to know many new friends! I really miss them very much…SERIOUSLY again…lol… The feeling was like last time when I was in choir. All the people practice hard to achieve a target but at the same time maintain good friendships with each other.

Hung Wui, Pei Wen..i miss performing “乌拉小姐” with u both leh…haha..u both always 癫 with me de…

Chin Guan aka banana…xiu sar gor, my so called “twin brother”

Elle…女主角..always take her hp n record here record there…and take photos…haha

Kim Fong, Hui Ying n Yee Ching…三个可爱的乌拉人

Wen Yao…the old ppl…the make up reli very real lo…

Eevonn, Wei Yee, Chee Loung, Chuan Hen n 权…5 always take k of us n very nice 的助导

Charles…the fake muscles n abs…wahaha

Ivan, Rachel, Mei Fang…King n Queens…the most beautiful n handsome in 乌拉世界

Grace n Ah Hui…sell mandarins 的乌拉人…always 癫 with me also

And another 2 girls…sorry that I dun rmb the names…coz both of them kinda quiet…
But they act 乌拉人 too…

I miss u all very very much!!!

(For more photos, pls go visit my facebook)

But I dun think there is another chance for all of us to gather again…

I hate that feeling…

Makes me feel so lonely sometimes…

To tell the truth, when PAP ended and all of us packing at backstage preparing to leave…I felt like crying…felt like letting my tears to roll down my cheeks…but I didn’t. I didn’t wan u all to think that I m so emotional…

Hope we can still keep in touch! Promise k? Do find me go shopping, sing k or eat k?
*sobsob*

Take k~ Friendship Forever

Muacks!

Do "they" understand considerate?

When I was in primary school, I remember that in moral studies, our teacher used to teach us to be considerate. I still remember one of the situation given was we should not turn on the radio or television so loud because it may disturb our neighbours. It is very easy to understand, isn't it? Even primary students or maybe kindergarden students can understand this concept easily...However, I don't understand that why some university students, i emphasize again...UNIVERSITY students can't be considerate??

Today when i was taking a nap, i dunno which room's people turn on the radio very loudly....with their loud speaker!!! The whole floor also can listen to the loud musics! And i wanna tell you all...this is not the first time!!! Do u know how irritating is it? somemore they even sang loudly!!! AArrggghhh....this is so damn retarded!!! Do they buy the hostel all by themselves? Do they ever learn moral? As a university student, dun you think they should hv the mentality that match up to the level?

During today's lecture, we hv to copy notes. I admit that my copy-notes-skill is kinda slow, but i reli very fed up when dunno which freaking students who can copy till super fast kept on saying "NEXT!....NEXT!" when people were not yet finish copying! I felt so 'geram' for the whole class...

I dunno wat happen to me...ever since this 2nd semester started, my "hatred" to those "people" are deeper n deeper....everything they do seems to irritate me!!! everything they do are so so so RETARDED!!! SO FAKE!!! I already try to be more open-minded but currently i really just cnt do it!

I will work hard to prove myself! Dun think "you all" r so GREAT! I will steal back the SPOTLIGHT ALL BY MYSELF someday!!!

First blog in 2009

It's 2009! This is my first post in 2009...haha



Talking about Chinese New Year, I had chicken pox the week before CNY!!! so unlucky...but also consider lucky la coz i mostly recovered during CNY...can't eat many delicious food...can't get to meet many of my friends...din get to meet my choir friends, ex-classmates...



Many ppl said i become more skinny...i wonder why...i sked my health status drop...hope not...



Lately really kinda lazy to blog...coz in uni, reli dun hv the time (if i really got free time i will use it to play Pet Society or msn-ing...haha). I m also busy practising drama for Pesta Ang Pau. Acting in drama is really not as easy as i think...really kinda disappointed when sometimes I can't do well n hv to do it again n again. Just hope that it will turn well on that day.



This semester my lecturers mostly kinda sucks...except a few...really sien when facing them...



Haiz...some of my good friends are going to move out from hostel starting next semester...i wonder i will be lonely tat time or not...



Whatever it is...dun want to worry about it 1st...tml got 1 exam, wish myself all the best!



I will try to blog again...stay tuned!!! lol